6 months Monday

Tomorrow will be our 6 month wedding anniversary........... altho sometimes it seems like a lifetime and other times it seems like just yesterday...... not enough time. I am kind of depressed today..... geeeeeez, when I should be happy! But our life is so far from normal and I am sick of it. I can live with not being able to have children. I can live with my husband never being able to work again. I can even live with the daily weekly budget crunch and the tiny space we have to live in... not a glorious home. But it is sickening to have to fear daily how long we have left together on this earth. It is exhausting to us both. I am elated that we have made it 6 months tomorrow as husband and wife... I just have this space in my mind and heart that cries silently "will we have another 6 months together as husband and wife?". But yet I would never go back and change anything. I would never go back and NOT be with him because of his health or fear of his passing. Does not matter when or how long we have have, he is mine.

So HAPPY 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY tomorrow honey!