Was going to blog SOMETHING because there is a lot to say... but I can't find the words. Seems everything is not right. If you are wondering what "everything" is... guess you will have to keep wondering because I am in such a deep state of depression and going down further that I cannot even say what "everything" is even though I really somehow know. If that oddly makes any sense at all. I suppose the above says it all...
WellI am editing after a whole nites of no sleep and getting my med box filled and talking with the psych nurse about "things" and I have my appointment with the psychiatrist Monday as scheduled but of course he will be asking me how I am and I will have to answer. If I do not answer he can not deem me safe to go home. If I answer how I am honestly feeling 95 percent of the time the last 5 days or so... he can not send me home. If I lie, well, I should know better than that from my past. I have been down this road before but not for a very long time I have to admit. And it is NOT a medication issue... I do know this. I know what it is. But no one understands. Maybe I just need time. I don't know. But I am sick too. And that is not good.
2 comments:
Shannon,
Remember my little one you are loved and thought of and prayed for - you are a survivor - change is so so hard - but from change there are so many possibilities. Who knew we would be part of each others life 21 years ago when I began this job of teaching. But we are and that will not end. Who knew that you and Leo would be married 10 years ago and here you two are for however long God allows and even then you two have been blessed. Feel the love Shannon - feel the warmth and healing - let yourself be open to all the things to come that today you can not imagine. You can say I say this because I do not understand and I say I say this because I do understand.
Love forever - The Mom
i am sorry you were having trouble.
i do not know the right things to do. gald you you made it though. i would lost without you in my life
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