Well, things here have not been that fun. Thanksgiving I woke up to shaking and chills and close to 103 fever and VERY VERY sick to my tummy and all over ache like I was going to just fall to pieces. Leo was cooking dinner at "The Mom and Dad's" house since they were not there. He was cooking a big dinner for he and I and my father, whom I still dislike but Leo has become "best friends" with and it really upsets me. Anyway. I ended up coming back home and in bed by noon, so ill and sick getting worse. Leo stayed away a couple days so maybe he wouldnt catch it. But I was not getting better. I finnaly callwd the dr after 5 days and am on an antibiotic. And just started feeling better yesterday.... after a week of fever, chills, sweats, vomitting, etc...... headache.
Christmas is a bust yet again..... I AM SOOOOO TIRED OF HAVING NO MONEY AND NOTHING BUT A TINY APARTMENT AND BILLS TO PAY AND BARELY MAKING IT!!!!!!! I want to buy people gifts. I want to be in a bigger place. Heck, I just want to be able to go out sometime.
Enough whining I know.
Leo sees the cardiologist on the 18th to find out his fate yet again. i AM REALLY SICK OF ALL OF THAT TOO.
I am missing my babygirl, Silver, with all my heart. She will be gone 2 years on the 28th. Things would be so much easier with her here the way they used to be. She was my sweet babygirl. I will never be over her. Never. And Christmas evening is 5 years since my precious Uncle Donald died and I miss a lot lately. And then of course the 29th is my dear Mother's birthday and there are not enough words to describe how much I miss her. April it will be 20....... YESSSSSS 20 years since her violent passing when I was 15. Almost 16. 20 years. Without her. And such a huge part of my heart still numb.
I really just wish I had my swwet babygirl, Silver. She always knew when something was wrong and just layed by me and purred with her paw on me or on my face. Always looking at my face. I miss her, my little Angel.
I know, stupid....... just a cat right?
Never just a cat.
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