Saturday, April 25, 2009

1st Anniversary and Birthday! And a Special Photo

Ok... well I am putting a photo of my precious Mom I finally got scanned... that I couldn't get up on the 1st in her honor... This pic is how I remember her... sorry the qualit is not that good... it is a copy of a copy. I look at her in this pic and just look for minutes and minutes and don't move.... its like shock still after 20 yrs. :( Cuz she is the most beautiful thing on earth...
Ok so I turned 36 on April 18th. Yay. We didn't do much. Then our first wedding anniversary was on the 21st. Again, we didn't do much. Leo is working 3 nights straight and sleeping a lot of the rest of the time!. I too am working and have not been myself. But Leo is himself. And I hate it. LOL. Anyway. It is warm and nice.
"The Mom" is still here till June finishing teaching while the dad is in their new home in FL with Bootsie and all their stuff. Waiting for this house to sell. Either way she will be leaving in june. :( It is hard. She has been a Mom for so long. It will hard to not have her near.
I am thinking we might head to the beach it is so nice today. So I am cutting this short...

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

20 Years... Survived!



This little is funky guy above is kinda how I felt today... all discombobulated and mangled and annoyed and upset. But all in all... considering... I think I have done pretty darn well handling this 20yr mark of Mom's death. Lots of horrible memories of course. Only yelled and screamed a few times... LOL. And that was at my therapist... bless her heart. I am extremely exhausted. So maybe I am going to try to sleep now.

Oh and my brother called my this morning!!!!!!!!!!!!! Total shock!!!!!!!!!!!!! That made my day I think. I know it did. :)

I miss you Mom... and more than you or anyone will ever ever know.